Expectations!

Writing after a long long time. Was probably too caught up in office or was not really in a mood to pen down my thoughts over this time or probably was not really willing to think or probably wanted to convince myself that I dont think!

Have come home last night for a vacation... and here I am... in heaven! There's no place on this earth better than home!! I rarely get sad when I am home... even though I think a lot being free at home, but I dont get sad somehow...

Well... this post is about expectations!! The much hyped-n-talked-about type of thing in the relationship world. I am sure you would have had discussions about this with your boyfriend / girlfriend or whatever. The discussion would be something like you shouldn't have expectations. Let things happen. When you have expectations you get hurt. If you dont keep any expectations you would have a smoother n happier relationship. One of you at least would be saying things like that right?

I would say ---- just cut the crap. How on earth can a relation exist without expectations!!! There have to be some expectations at least!! And I believe thats what a relation is!! If I dont have any expectations, then in God's name can you tell me the difference between this person that I have the relationship with and a person just walking on the street??? I dont expect anything from the person on the street also and from this world's... or I would say the theoretical n idealistic world's... point of view not even from my relation! Come on mate, expectations are what make a relation. They are the foundation. As strong a foundation as trust is! And this relation can be any relation... a boyfriend-girlfriend relation... or two friends... or any relation... except the mother-child relation.

Now, on the other hand I would also say that it is very important to keep the expectations to a minimum... to whatever you can. How this helps is that when you have low expectations... and the other person does something that goes beyond that... it will be tremendously joyous for you... and that is what will make your relationship stronger and sweeter.

But sometimes... you just start expecting. And the other person (just any other person... not your boyfriend / girlfriend.... well not exactly any other person... but... a not-so-old-but-good-friend category person) doesnt respond. It hurts bad mate! But in this case, it is not the fault of that other person... you can't blame him for anything. But then you do. You think that isn't it obvious. If you are spending time together, isnt it obvious. On the other hand you think... ahh come on... relax. Big deal! You just dont know what to think and what to do. You are kind of at a war with yourself. This situation is crazy. Completely crazy... and trust me... it is difficult to handle too.

Well... I have lost much to this word EXPECTATIONS!!! And trust me... I hate this word probably more than anything else in the world... but still... want to get rid of it.... but somehow can't do without it... I had decided to stop expecting anything from anything living... but it doesnt work that way... but also true is that you feel bad if you have expectations... I dont know what I am saying... probably I am not able to explain things to myself... what is wrong n what right... I dont know... n thats I think one reason I came here to write... thought probably this place will tell me something... but as written in my intro line... I initially came to blog coz at least this would not reply back... but today I want it to talk to me... see... expectations grow as the relationship grows.. knowing very well it cant talk I still want it to!!!

God damn!!!