Here I am again... writing yet again under the effect of my second luv... :-)
Yet again a thought came to my mind... and this time questioning my own belief...
Does HE really exist??
I quote a lot about HIM in my posts. And that's because I believe in HIM or should I say used to... the thing is... well... I dont know what the thing is!! But there are people who spend there lives - that they believe is given by HIM and controlled by HIM - worshipping HIM, asking HIM to make there lives better, praying, doing nothing wrong for another human thinking that that's against HIM, not cheating anyone, keeping the vrata's (fasts) with the staying-hungry-pleases-HIM kinda philosophy, etc etc etc.
Well... I truly did believe in HIM. That's irrespective of the fact that I dont do any of the things above... going to a temple is like a mission to me. But whatever, if HE really is there... then why do people who do all sorts of things to make HIM happy suffer... why why why???
If I suffer... I understand that. Coz I do nothing that people-think-pleases-HIM kind of things. So I can explain that with my belief in HIM. What I cant explain... and cant understand is that why the people opposite of me get hit so so so bad! They say that HE tests you... but come on mate... you dont almost kill a person to test him. If that's what it takes to get tested... well... I am better off without that test! Just keep me away from that killing thingie ok!
I dont know... but I think I have lost all faith... I am just going crazy. I am not able to find any answer to the questions running in my head. And I believe that neither you nor HE can have any answers. But I still want them! Where, how, when... I dont know. If HE comes in front of me tonight, trust me, even HE will not be able to win this argument with me!!! I am just so so so damn pissed with HIM.
Why can't life be easy. Ok, not easy... but a lil easier.
Lord... if you really are there... then you know what all this is for. Please... make my life hell... I probably deserve it... and I would (try at least to) take it with a smile... :-) but pardon those who dont!!! Please take care of them... what they are getting is not what they deserve... for once, please believe in me LORD!!! Believe me... They dont deserve it... I do!
Friday, October 24, 2008
Wednesday, October 08, 2008
Just another thought...
A thought came to my mind sometime...
God is not dead... he is just drunk!!
And then I thought... man I am a genious! :-)Well thats not the point really of this post. As always, I do not know what is the point of this post though. I am just writing. But that statement above. Does that ring some bells? For me... that rings a thousand bells together... I just feel that nerve-shivering feeling when I think of it.
Well... I was just thinking of a kewl line to get engraved on my newly-bought-much-adored iPod nano 4G when this came. And my nano actually has this engraved now. It could have any meaning. It could also have no meaning to many. For me... it simply asks to keep your patience going in your tough times. If you are going through a tough time... and feel like cursing God... or feeling like questioning His existence... for a moment think of this line... and you will probably feel that He is just sleeping out of getting drunk... and he will be back the moment alcohol takes its effect off Him. Well... come on... He also needs to relax sometimes yeah... after all He is a human too... :-)
I give him that grace coz I am a pure alcohol lover. Alcohol is always my second love... the first being my mom. So it has just been great for me! I can give up almost anything for alcohol... well you might be having that what-a-loser kinda feeling right now... but I don't mind... I at least know what I luv... do you? Most of us would spend our lives thinking or trying to find out what we luv... but I know that already at this "tender" age of 27. :-)
Well I guess too much of crap... and mind you... I am already writing under the effect of my second luv... so it gotta be heart felt! A drunken man never lies... and a drunken woman never lays ;-)
So cheers guys! And remember... He is always there! Even when he is drunk!!!
Cheers!
God is not dead... he is just drunk!!
And then I thought... man I am a genious! :-)Well thats not the point really of this post. As always, I do not know what is the point of this post though. I am just writing. But that statement above. Does that ring some bells? For me... that rings a thousand bells together... I just feel that nerve-shivering feeling when I think of it.
Well... I was just thinking of a kewl line to get engraved on my newly-bought-much-adored iPod nano 4G when this came. And my nano actually has this engraved now. It could have any meaning. It could also have no meaning to many. For me... it simply asks to keep your patience going in your tough times. If you are going through a tough time... and feel like cursing God... or feeling like questioning His existence... for a moment think of this line... and you will probably feel that He is just sleeping out of getting drunk... and he will be back the moment alcohol takes its effect off Him. Well... come on... He also needs to relax sometimes yeah... after all He is a human too... :-)
I give him that grace coz I am a pure alcohol lover. Alcohol is always my second love... the first being my mom. So it has just been great for me! I can give up almost anything for alcohol... well you might be having that what-a-loser kinda feeling right now... but I don't mind... I at least know what I luv... do you? Most of us would spend our lives thinking or trying to find out what we luv... but I know that already at this "tender" age of 27. :-)
Well I guess too much of crap... and mind you... I am already writing under the effect of my second luv... so it gotta be heart felt! A drunken man never lies... and a drunken woman never lays ;-)
So cheers guys! And remember... He is always there! Even when he is drunk!!!
Cheers!
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