Another one of those sleepless nights... this is the third in a row now.. and getting too much to bear.
I keep turning around in the bed but dont get any sleep. I have had stark different feelings in these three nights though:
Sunday night - I was anxious. I was anxious as to what will she say. I was anxious as to what will I say to her. I was anxious as to what will our future be. What would have she decided. Stuff like that. Obviously hoping for the good things.
Last night - I was broken and devastated. I thought that this is fucked up shit. Many a songs kept playing in my head all throught the night.. the songs she said that she "meant" for me.. I wondered how things changed so much in a couple of weeks..
Tonight - It's pure hatred and some disgust... She's really been a fucking bitch to me. After all that I was ready to accept her with, And only because I luved her... I just luved her beyond measure... I dont believe that she did what all she did...! I dont believe she said what all she said.. I know I have possessiveness issues.. Guess that was too much for her to handle..
Anyways.. as I said in my last post also, I promise myself that I wont fall in luv again.. ever..!
I keep turning around in the bed but dont get any sleep. I have had stark different feelings in these three nights though:
Sunday night - I was anxious. I was anxious as to what will she say. I was anxious as to what will I say to her. I was anxious as to what will our future be. What would have she decided. Stuff like that. Obviously hoping for the good things.
Last night - I was broken and devastated. I thought that this is fucked up shit. Many a songs kept playing in my head all throught the night.. the songs she said that she "meant" for me.. I wondered how things changed so much in a couple of weeks..
Tonight - It's pure hatred and some disgust... She's really been a fucking bitch to me. After all that I was ready to accept her with, And only because I luved her... I just luved her beyond measure... I dont believe that she did what all she did...! I dont believe she said what all she said.. I know I have possessiveness issues.. Guess that was too much for her to handle..
Anyways.. as I said in my last post also, I promise myself that I wont fall in luv again.. ever..!
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