Just too lost...

Yet again I sit down to write something,
Yet again I have negative thoughts in my mind.
Dont know why all this is happening,
But I am just getting grinded in the grind...

Am not able to think straight these days,
It has been ages since I raised a toast!
Life appears to have lost its meaning,
Gone is my optimism that I used to boast...
Nothing that I do seems to succeed,
Every effort seems to be going in vain.
And I really don't know what to do,
At the moment, I am just in utter pain...

I know that I have to come out of it,
And no one else but only I can do the same.
Don't know how to go about it but,
I have to play the winning move in this game...
I want to get to my old self again,
I want to once again raise the toast!
I want to run away from this me,
This me who feels like a loser's winning post...

Help me through God, help me through,
As you always have through the worst.
All I know right now is that,
I feel just too lost... I am just too lost...