Introspection

I don't know why a conversation I had with a friend long time ago is coming back to me today. And it has been happening since the morning and so I thought I might as well write about it.

It was an sms conversation and was sometime back in 2009 I think. I told her that I missed the past and all the fun we had when the entire gang was together in Mohali and stuff like that. Those random Kasauli trips, all nighters on my roof, in the nick of the moment parties etc etc etc. And as I wrote, I again miss those times. :-( Indeed awesome it was. :-)

Anyways, at the end of the discussion, I told her that I somehow am still stuck in the past. And she said:

"Life never stops to grieve with us"

And I couldn't say anything after that!

This is one of the biggest negatives I think I have in me. I get stuck to people, to things, to events and to what not. I just don't move on. Not so easily at least. And this has caused me a lot of pain and a lot of missed opportunities as well. I know I have written on my blog itself a thousand times that I should learn to move on and I am learning to move on and blah blah blah... But it really has never happened. I take like ages to move on! I just stop, and life and everyone moves on...

Why do I stop when no one does

Why do I get stuck

Why do I get attached so much

Why do I kill my own luck...

Trying to find the answers has been a long journey already for me with no success at all. More than to find the answers, I want to change this aspect of mine. I don't want to get attached. I don't want to be in pain... I hope I learn soon... just soon enough!

Cheers!