It's my 30th birthday today. And if FB is to be believed... people love me! :-D I have so many wishes there..
But the truth? In the past years... The phone never used to stop ringing as the clock struck 12... friends used to get drinks and cake... though the butt kicking part I didn't like that much but now that I think of it... I kinda miss it.. :-) All that cake holi and stuff... people actually used to try and make me feel special...
It has been decreasing slowly and steadily... but this year was a sudden and shocking change.. how many calls did I get this year at 12... ZERO... :-) Rather I ain't expecting too many in the day too... No cake... drinks alone last night... No plans for today either... The loneliness is on an all time high... Guess what.. I asked a friend to come here for my birthday.. probably the first time I did something as stupid and as desperate as that... I just didn't want to stay alone may be... And guess what... I was declined.. :-)
I know I know.. It's my birthday and I shouldn't start the new year ahead on a low or some crap like that I have always been told... Anyways.. so I thought of teaching myself some lesson... To not tie all the hope to some one person... To start and enjoy living alone... To try and control the urge to make that phone call... To start being selfish...
I hope I am able to stick to this. And that I am able to turn this leaf over. Amen.
Cheers!
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