Do you find yourself sometimes wondering why do you care so much about someone? Specially when you don't get a similar kind of care and thought in reciprocation? All your plans are made with the person in mind, but doesn't happen the other way... Do you feel bad about it? Do you feel neglected and unloved and uncared for? I do.
Do you wonder why is no special thought given about you anytime? At times, you will want it all the time and not just anytime. Specially if you have limited time you know you will spend together. Don't you? I do.
It has happened with me quite a few times. In the past, in the present, and I am sure in the future too. But I have never learned my lesson. I know that it is just stupid or plain idiotic of me. But yeah... I have never learnt my lesson and the same with so many other things. I just don't learn! I always have thought in my mind that I have learnt. But when the situation comes again, I am again the same caring lover and the one that gets hurt in return. And I have been told every time that I am over sensitive. Makes me really feel that I am abnormal then. Makes me feel that something for sure is wrong with me. So many people can't be wrong can they?
Or is it that I just give myself too much when I am in luv? Is that right? Should you keep yourself even when you are in luv? Should you plan for only yourself even when you are in luv? Should you not try to make the other person feel special all the time? Should not do things, cancel your plans, do things that surprise the other person?
I don't know what crap really have been writing. But just a free flow of the mind actually. May not think the same tomorrow. But the circumstances are making me write this. I feel left alone... I feel uncared for... I feel left out...
I need someone for whom I am the world... I need someone who thinks of me all the time... I need someone who cares for me more than anything else in the world... I need someone... I need me!
Cheers!
Do you wonder why is no special thought given about you anytime? At times, you will want it all the time and not just anytime. Specially if you have limited time you know you will spend together. Don't you? I do.
It has happened with me quite a few times. In the past, in the present, and I am sure in the future too. But I have never learned my lesson. I know that it is just stupid or plain idiotic of me. But yeah... I have never learnt my lesson and the same with so many other things. I just don't learn! I always have thought in my mind that I have learnt. But when the situation comes again, I am again the same caring lover and the one that gets hurt in return. And I have been told every time that I am over sensitive. Makes me really feel that I am abnormal then. Makes me feel that something for sure is wrong with me. So many people can't be wrong can they?
Or is it that I just give myself too much when I am in luv? Is that right? Should you keep yourself even when you are in luv? Should you plan for only yourself even when you are in luv? Should you not try to make the other person feel special all the time? Should not do things, cancel your plans, do things that surprise the other person?
I don't know what crap really have been writing. But just a free flow of the mind actually. May not think the same tomorrow. But the circumstances are making me write this. I feel left alone... I feel uncared for... I feel left out...
I need someone for whom I am the world... I need someone who thinks of me all the time... I need someone who cares for me more than anything else in the world... I need someone... I need me!
No one can luv you like you do
You are the master of your feelings
No one can make you feel special
You are the one who can cause your healing!
You are the master of your feelings
No one can make you feel special
You are the one who can cause your healing!
Cheers!
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